Guess who was able to walk at the mall all day?
ME!
Guess who is changing her habits BIG TIME?
ME!
Guess who only ate 1/2 a breadstick at the Italian restaurant and only 1/2 an entree?
ME!
WOOT!
I may not lose any weight this week because of a birthday party, but that’s okay. I didn’t over-indulge! I still had 1 cupcake and another sweet. But I kept my portions small.
I. Am. Changing.
And it feels SO GOOD.
It feels so much better than eating whatever I want.
On the flip side, I’m finding my emotions are a mess. I am crying more because I don’t stuff my emotions down inside with food.
I saw my counselor and he said that’s normal and that it’s good. He’s helping me work on a plan of “new beginnings” for myself.
One of those new beginnings is that I can walk the mall! I CAN WALK THE FREAKING MALL! And I’m not tired and I’m not out of breath and my legs don’t hurt when I’m done.
I can fit into a booth! Any booth! Pick a booth. I can fit into it.
These might seem like silly things. But they are big for me.
Sure, I still have 100 pounds to go. But I have lost enough weight that I now fit a little better into society.
It’s a great feeling.
