How Did You Get So Fat?

So maybe you all thought I had given up.

No.  I was just biding my time.

And learning.  I learned a lot this holiday as I focused on the meaning of food and how much I tie it into celebrations, holidays and day to day life.

Here are some things I learned:

1. Not everyone in my family cares as much about what to eat on the holidays as I do.  I have idyllic notions about what foods should be served on a holiday.  Things such as pie, cookies, cake, candy - aren’t as important to my family as they are to me.  That was a HUGE revelation to me.  HUGE.
2. I realize that I have theses notions because that’s how I was brought up with my grandmother cooking during the holidays.  To me, food = love.  I have known this for years.  But this year it really hit me hard and hit home.  I try to recreate the same feelings my grandmother gave me, and to be honest, there’s just no way to do that.  I learned that.
3. I have got to change my ways or I am going to die early.  And if I don’t die early, I am going to be a burden to others, and I don’t want that.

I am easily overwhelmed thinking about what I’m going to do this next year.  So I’m not going to make any kind of resolutions regarding food.  But I am going to make these goals for myself:

1. Believe.  Believe I can do this “good food” thing.  Believe I can work out and become a strong old lady.
2. Do one thing each day that brings me closer to my goal of being healthy.
3. Get more sleep.  This one is very difficult for me on so many levels and for so many reasons I can’t reveal on here.

So there you go.  I’m still here.  I’m still going to try.  I’m still willing to fight the good fight.  Bring it on 2010.  Let’s see what you’ve got.

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