Maybe you’ll think I’m a sell-out, and maybe I am, but I am not going to stop eating sugar until after the holidays are over. I am a mother and a grandmother and I cook constantly during the holidays.
However, having said that, I am being more selective and more thoughtful and more careful. I am doing well with portion control. I just like portions that contain sugar and sugar packs on my pounds.
But there are two things I’ve done that should help me after the first of the year.
1. I have a sponsor. She is someone to whom I will be accountable regarding my sugar intake. It’s sugar that I have an addiction to. She is a healthy, fit and active woman who struggles with smoking. So, I will sponsor her in regard to smoking as she sponsors me in regard to overeating and exercise. I think this is going to be super helpful. I have known all along that I needed someone who will kick me in the butt. My husband won’t do it because he is codependent just like me and he is overweight. He even told me today that once I start losing weight it’s always easier for him to jump in and join me in the quest.
I know that I’m not supposed to think “diet” but the truth is, I just don’t lose weight if I don’t. I’m not sure how to get around that.
In the meantime, I am happy to report that I am able to be on my feet a lot more now. I can walk a lot further and my health is much better than it was previously.
The second thing I have done to help me after the first of the year is that I have my husband on board finally to help me emotionally and socially. I think he will really do it now that we are getting old and not getting any healthier eating sugar the way we do.
It sounds so simple: stop the sugar intake. But it’s my drug. It always has been. Sugar = love. I only got it (love and sugar) as a child unless I was with my grandmother, and to me, that’s what makes me feel better.
I’m recognizing some triggers in my life and that should help me, too.
One thing I refuse to do is to shut down this blog. I have tried using a blog before but this time I’m not going to let myself delete it. It’s going to be part of keeping myself accountable. I think I’ll have my sponsor able to read it, too (she doesn’t blog). That way, I have nowhere to hide!
So tell me, am I on the right track? Or am I just fooling myself and totally off base?
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