Still going at it
I’m still here. Going at my weight loss, struggling, but still trying.
Here are some things I’ve done in 2012:
1. Signed up at the local aquatic center. I’m a member now and am swimming at least 3-5 times a week. It’s so hard to make myself go. The first day I went, I was so embarrassed. I sat in the dressing room scared to death to make an appearance. It was humiliating. Seeing myself in fluorescent lighting naked was traumatic. I had no idea just how really, really grossly obese I am. Searing that picture in my mind keeps me motivated.
2. I’m trying to eat healthy instead of diet. I know it will take a lot longer for me to lose weight, but I’m trying to educate myself on the dangers of things such as sugar. Sugar is a poison and I’m addicted to it. Being an American is so hard. Sugar is everywhere. I squeaked through Valentine’s day and failed by eating chocolates. Then, I go to Walmart and there were FOUR AISLES of Easter Candy. How are Americans supposed to succeed in weight loss when sugar is so prevalent? And it’s addictive. It’s not like you can “just say no” easily. So, I’m working through that sugar issue. It’s so hard. But I am committed to stay educated on the problems with sugar and hope to post some info on here soon.
Will this be the year?
I hope so.
I’ll do a weigh-in tomorrow and check back in.
Not only did I not lose weight in 2011, I put about 60 pounds on.
I can blame stress, but the fact is, I was a glutton. I didn’t take care of myself.
This year, I hope to take better care of myself. No matter how my life fails to make me happy. (I know I’m facing some pretty severe challenges this year. Things that will rock me to my core.)
But I want to make a change. I want to do it. I’m ready.